How Beautiful

How beautiful is Your name, O God
How worthy are You, Lord of all creation
A God whom we can call "Abba Father"

Holy & Anointed One
Strong tower
Refuge
Mighty Fortress
Strength
Hiding Place

We exalt Thy name
We worship Thee
How beautiful You are

The Unshakable Kingdom

Got introduced to this new song by Christy Nockels "A Mighty Fortress" some time ago, actually it's in her new album "Life Light Up", which I hope I'll be getting soon since I've already placed my order.

And when I first heard it, oh my goodness, it's as if God's weight of glory just fell on me and consumed me there and then... the line that goes:

"Your Kingdom is unshakable..."

My heart just sank...

and it totally woke me up from the reality that YEAH! I'm part of this unshakable kingdom, and God has made me to be a part of His big plan, He has made everyone on this earth a part of this big big huge mega humongous extraordinary great awesome amazing wonderful beyond words can describe plan that He has.

And just the other day, I was watching the opening of Hillsong Conference that happened in the 1st week of July, and in the final part of that video came this verse:

"Therefore, since we are receiving an unshakable kingdom, let us give thanks, and through this let us offer worship pleasing to God in devotion and awe. For our God is indeed a consuming fire"
Hebrews 12:28


Again, that reality sank in even more...
Just imagine, how blessed and privileged we are to be part of this... just who are we to be called to this great plan? How unworthy we are...

who are we that God is mindful of us...

But it is God who chooses us first, to savour Him... and if we think that what we are, who we are and what we have right now is it... think again! This is only a small teeny weeny piece of the puzzle...


Break me, Lord!
Shake me once again to the reality of Your great kingdom!
Wonk me out again....

This I pray, Amen!

Let God Reign

Let not the praises of men be in the way between us and the Lord
Do not settle for meeting the expectations of men
But let the peace of the Lord reign over you

Let the Holy Spirit lead you to fullness and completion
Let him lead you to meet the Lord
Do not give up until You come face to face with our eternal God

Let us boast in nothing,
If there is anything we wanna boast about,
Let us boast in Him, Jesus Christ our Lord

Let the peace of God reign over you...
Let it drench all over you...
Soak yourself in it...
For the grace of our Lord is sufficient

it is in giving that we receive

U know how humans have the tendency to gravitate everything towards themselves? Everything becomes about me me me... I don't care about what others feel, as long as I feel good can already, because what's most important is that I feel good.

And it's true, we all are like that! We expect people to listen to us, we expect things to work around us, we wouldn't wanna be inconvenienced, we just wanna receive, receive, receive... we don't go out of our way to help someone anymore, we don't go out of the way to serve anymore, we don't go out of the way for God.

It becomes so natural that sometimes, the conversation u have with another becomes all about u and u just forget to care for that person... because it's all about u! everything becomes about u!! How selfish we can get sometimes.

I'm no exception, because I'm not perfect.

When things start to cloud and fall apart, u realise that HEY! how come i'm feeling so empty and why am i ending up complaining so much? that's cos for the longest time, it has been all about u.

Pray to the Lord, ask Him to fill u with love in ur heart again, pour out that love God put in u to someone else. Try making the conversation u have with the next person about that person, and u will realise it is in giving that u receive...

Amen!

Desperate Cry

My soul cries out desperately to You, O God

If I were a kite and You hold me by the thread
Why have You cut me away from You
And allowed me to fly freely, swayed by the wind, engulfed by the rain

If I were a toddler and You hold me by the hand
Why have You let go of me
And see me tumble and fall

My soul cried out desperately to You
Remembering the times I spent with You on that mountaintop
How close I was to seeing Your Glory
And now You seem so far, so far away

You heard my desperate cry
You couldn't bear to see me in pain anymore

You came back
And You picked me up from where I was
And held me back in Your loving arms


Thank You, Lord

Blood Poured Out

A Holy Week Reflection


How can it be, that You are willing to suffer for a sinner like me?
How can it be, that You are willing to shed Your precious blood for a world (You created) that has turned their backs against You?
How can it be, that You have humbled Yourself, turned into a single cell, to be born out of the womb of a human and walked among your creation, knowing that You mission to come is to die?

Why would anyone do this, knowing that the love You give will not be reciprocated, knowing that You will be betrayed by Your very own creation?


You have forgiven time and again, saved Your creation time and again, yet they keep falling back to their old sinful ways.

You must have been so desperate to the point that the only measure to take is for Your love to be shown in the most extreme way - to be tortured, humiliated, scorned, scourged, detested, mocked at and to die like a criminal.


An unworthy, sinful, ungrateful creation.

Yet, You still poured out Your blood for us unconditionally.

happYness

On a happier note in the midst of all the bad news going on recently... Jesus came to redeem us all!!

happy happy happy! Easter is coming!!

Few things I'm looking forward to:

1. Meeting up with bbff
2. Visit my cutest God-daughter
3. Volunteers' Day
4. EASTER! And Amplify's Easter Lunch!!
(someone think of where to go this year!)
5. iPhone
6. New com in office
7. 1 May long weekend (for once, i don't have to work! yipppeee!!)
8. September trip... highlight of the year!!! YAY!!!

Thank You, Lord!

Crazy work week and a bad news...

This week had been really crazy, imagine working from 9am - 10pm everyday consecutively... it's nuts!! insane! i'm not an accountant, u know?

The only comfort is that I'll be out the entire day tmr for some fun with my khakis... weee!!
And the drama starts again, Sunday & Monday... both days till 10pm.. WOW!


Got a bad news though, saw from the papers last week that one of my friend's (whom I haven't contacted for years) brother passed on...

I've been trying to find ways to contact her but in vain. Though I wouldn't be able to go down to the wake anytime this week anyway (cos i had to work late the entire week), been praying for her and family.


Lyn,

if you happen to be reading this (for some strange reason), know that u're in my prayers and I know God loves ur bro very much...


Love,
Lyd

The Only Name

Your name is high and exalted
Far above everything that's named
Your name the only name Jesus
By which all men can be saved

Your name is a strong tower
I run to you and I am safe
My greatest honour Lord
Is to speak your name


Jesus, my Lord Jesus
Emmanuel, You are with us
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus
Christ is the Lord
I come and behold you


You cover me
Deliver me
Lord I have set my love on you
I dwell within your secret place
Under your shadow, Mighty God

Way Out...

You avoid, you siam, try not to go near... but bobian, it will still come back and bite you...

Biangs... i think really cannot run away liao...

No way out

A New Spirit

Create in me a clean heart
A new spirit, You have put within me

A new perspective You have given me
A clarity like never before

The former things have past
A new thing You have created


You make all things new!

Soups

I loveeeeeeeeeee soup.... I can't live without it!

Ok I'm ultra random, but I just realised that I've been going back to the same "zi cha" stall at Yew Tee foodcourt for the last 3 days, ordering all their variety of soups available.

Day 1 - Salted Vege & Duck Soup
Day 2 - Sichuan Pork Rib Soup
Day 3 - Ginseng Chicken Soup

OMG! i got craving for another round of soup tonight! weeeee.........

In Awe of You

The beauty of Your majesty captures my heart
I can't help but be in total awe

The greatness and wonders of You
melts the toughest of hearts

And Your love is constant from age to age,
generations to generations

O let my soul sing of Your love forever
O let Your creation be awakened,
their feet be set to dancing with joy
O let Your people praise You

Roads with less resistance

"Check, check! Heart check!"


it's easy to slip back onto the road with less resistance.

But when u're ready to get back on the road with resistance, how long can that last? how long?


That's why we all need constant healing and strengthening

My God is an efficient God

He answers prayers really fast... as fast as lightning!

Breath of God

Genesis 1:1-4
In the beginning, when God created the heavens and the earth, the earth was a formless wasteland, and darkness covered the abyss, while a mighty wind swept over the waters.

Then God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. God saw how good the light was. God then separated the light from the darkness.

Genesis 1:6

Then God said, "Let there be a dome in the middle of the waters, to separate one body of water from the other." And so it happened.

Genesis 1:9-10

Then God said, "Let the water under the sky be gathered into a single basin, so that the dry land may appear." And so it happened: the water under the sky was gathered into its basin, and the dry land appeared. God called the dry land "the earth," and the basin of the water he called "the sea."

Genesis 1:11-12

Then God said, "Let the earth bring forth vegetation: every kind of plant that bears seed and every kind of fruit tree on earth that bears fruit with its seed in it." And so it happened: the earth brought forth every kind of plant that bears seed and every kind of fruit tree on earth that bears fruit with its seed in it. God saw how good it was.

Genesis 1:20-21

Then God said, "Let the water teem with an abundance of living creatures, and on the earth let birds fly beneath the dome of the sky." And so it happened: God created the great sea monsters and all kinds of swimming creatures with which the water teems, and all kinds of winged birds.

Genesis 1:24-25

Then God said, "Let the earth bring forth all kinds of living creatures: cattle, creeping things, and wild animals of all kinds." And so it happened: God made all kinds of wild animals, all kinds of cattle, and all kinds of creeping things of the earth. God saw how good it was.

Genesis 1:26-27

Then God said: "Let us make man in our image, after our likeness. Let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, the birds of the air, and the cattle, and over all the wild animals and all the creatures that crawl on the ground." God created man in his image; in the divine image he created him; male and female he created them.

Genesis 2:7

The LORD God formed man out of the clay of the ground and blew into his nostrils the breath of life, and so man became a living being.



By the very breath of God, heaven & earth, day & night, waters & dry land, creatures on land & in the sky, all these were created. And He made everything good.

By the very breath of God, He breathe life into man.

By the very breath and command of God, He gave man wisdom.


I'm amazed.

Desperate Enough

Lukewarm... that's the word...
Where is the passion? Not burning strong enough...

Desperate? Not enough...

Mountains & Valleys are better than lukewarm

Gosh! I need a revelation!

Totally uninspired.


Oh did I say the most uninspiring thing for me now is to have blank faces staring back at me when I try to inspire?

O, why so downcast O their souls.

10 things I did in 2008!

OMG! I was just surfing through my old entries and I found this entry I did a year ago... thought it'll be fun to review and see how much I've achieved.

10 Things I wanna do in 2008 (dated 6 January 2008), so what have I done?

1. stop shopping (cut down i mean, oh & prob have a garage sale to sell my stuff =P)

Omg! I definitely didn't cut down on shopping! haha! I feel so guilty! I had a garage sale in March, with the money I got, I went on to buy more stuff!!! hahaha... Aunty Dee! pls lah, cut down on shopping... cannot one lor!

2. stop taking cabs (take when bo bian)

Stop taking cabs? how to when Amplify Fri end so late every week and the next morning still need to go for cell group back at CSC? I think I need to move to Hougang lah...

3. stop eating expensive food (stop ordering excessively & think twice before i step into a restaurant)

Wah! I think the 1st 3 resolutions were made in consideration of saving up for Hills College funds.. but I cannot go liao! So no need to save until so "gang kor"! hahaha! tsk tsk tsk Aunty Dee!

4. Pass my driving?!??!?! IN JESUS' NAME!

YES!!! I passed my driving on 11 April 2008! AMEN AMEN!! Praise the Lord!

5. finish reading the books i bought (all 12 of them, which means 1 a month)

Wow! I cannot remember which were the 12 books I bought, but I've definitely gotten another 8 more books in 2008. I'm done with only about 3 or 4! HAHAHA!

6. read deeper into the Word

Yes I did! Attended Salvation History also... completed it in Nov, going for my next one tmr for another 8 weeks (Letter to the Romans). Definitely read the Word a lot more... wee!!!

7. take 2 days leave & spend "God & Me" time at the beach

I didn't manage to take 2 days leave in a row, but I did go to the beach and spend an entire day there, lying on the sand and praying...

8. pick up Guitar AGAIN (the first song i wanna play: None But Jesus)

Wah! this one until now also I haven't gotten down to doing it, this will be one of the target I didn't manage to achieve...

I think Heehore & Gigi must be shaking their heads, going "tsk tsk tsk"!

wait wait! I get my $ first, then I'll go get a guitar...

9. build, journey with & start cell within Hospi Team

This one is I most proud of one... I DID IT! weeee.....!!!
i) Cell Group - Checked
ii) A-Teams, Spotters System - Checked
iii) Growth of the team (in numbers & spiritually) - Checked

10. see the final product of Eden Cafe

Definitely Yes!! Eden has changed so much! but more can be done... but must Winston do it then I can see it... haha!



This is interesting! I shall do a 10 things i wanna do in 2009! soon!
wooopieeeee.....!!!

Spiritual Food

Food! Glorious Food! Aunty Dee loves FOOD!!!!!!!
literally and non-literal...

I'm so happy my spiritual food is coming on Tuesday!
Water me pls... i'm almost withering!
8 weeks of watering plus all my unread books... enough to last me for 3 months...

Weeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!
I'm a happy girl!

Looking Back...

Looking back at 2008...

January

1. Opened the year with Countdown Party at my house... wee!!!

2. Leaders Retreat for 2008, very mong cha cha the direction (i remember), but it was great after that...

3. 16 Jan - Birth of Sarah, my cute lil' god daughter

4. 26 Jan - Biggest birthday celebration, 2 1/2 table full of people when I tot there were only 10 of us, but it was great! And my birthday present kena peechia the lobang by the salesgirl... Lynette went back to the shop to get a dress I wanted to buy, when I went back 1 day later when i finally decided to get the dress, the salesgirl say... "Oh ur friend bought it liao!" hahahhahaha!

February/ March/ April

1. Explosion of the swollen eye, happened every 2-3weeks... very rampant

2. Chris & Lyn left for Melbourne... (at that time i was quite decided on going away for a year in 09 to Hills, wah! Tma quite sad... hahaha!)

3. Baptism of Sarah (my right eye exploded much!)

4. Started to journey with my hospi girls, saw a lot of fruits and breakthroughs happening

Was an emotionally challenging season... very "why so downcast O my soul...", seemed as if I lost a few very important friends in my life, had to lay a lot of boundaries and a time of healing in friendships took place

May/ June/ July

1. Led worship again after a year break in May, had to lead worship at YI, started to serve more actively in worship again after a 2 year break.

2. Spent a lot of time praying and seeking God all over again... renewed my relationship with God, loads of revelation...

Started "Salvation History" at SPI with the other 3 lizards (Thelms, Grace, Cassie).

August/ September

1. Passion KL (the only time i got out of the country in 08, how can this be? OMG!)

Went through a short season of spiritual dryness, again, unresolved issues always never fail to come and bite u in the butt.. really!

2. Leo and Cass went off for their Sabbatical during the heat of preparing for Amplify in the City

3. Amplify in the City!!

WOW! i felt like i coordinated another YI! omg! cheong like nobody's business! But it really took my mind off the spiritual valley season and lifted me up a lot more... though physically and mentally demanding...

4. Went to watch Diana Krall's Concert with the F1 racing cars as the backup vocals
(grace and i were furiously mad! they changed the venue to fort canning ok! if they kept it at Keppel Bay, it would have been all great... thanks concert organisers!)

Mid Sept to Mid October

I took the entire month to rest, just rest...

recuperate... allow God to heal... ohmmmmm

Mid October - November

1. woke up from the "rest" and realise that my BBFF is fainting!!!
faster went to rescue her, sat down with her at Ma Maison (i remember)... omg!

YI Publicity, Worship Team, Amplify Fridays... here i come!

and i love u very much BBFF!!!

2. Oh yes! Wedding of the year!!! Cassilda finally "jia chu qu le"!
gathering of old friends... love it!

and it's always lovely singing for good friend's wedding, means a lot more to me... had a lot of fun with the music... woopieee!!

Survived "Salvation History" with the other 3 lizards (Thelms, Grace, Cassie).

December

mong cha cha, walked into YI... never prepare well enough spiritually, but at the same time, i remembered to guard against attacks, but kena attacked at the throat! wahhh... drank a lot of "ugly juice"! kong's favourite medicine, he calls it "shit juice", but i cannot say the word "shit" cos Cassilda say cannot say...

Nerve wrecking Sunsets & Hurricanes, sucked the life out of the kk and me... omg!
sleepless nights, changing directions every other day until the kk had to fly around the room with me... thanks for being part of the ride! haha!

And it's the first time ever the night before YI, i still haven't prepare finish for the Worship Sets.. kk also (he oscared and took mc)

walked through YI as if i woke up from a dream... i still didnt know what was going on.

(short spurt of "why so downcast O my soul" period, again, unresolved issues never never never fail to come and bite at you at the butt... )


Right now: 14 mins before 2009...


Daddy God Most High,

You are my life, my all and everything I live for. Thank You for an amazing year, thank you for the valleys, the mountains, the blessings, the pruning and favours. Thank You for a lovely earthly daddy, hilarious/irritating brother who never fails to get on my nerves, thank you for the friendships that were forged, deepened and strengthened and thank you for such a lovely Amplify. Filled with gratitude in my heart, I just wanna say "I love You Daddy God!"

Thank you for a fruitful 2008!

I pray for a great 2009 to come, draw closer as I continue to seek, follow and run after You. I pray for wisdom, strength, perseverance, confidence and boldness... to seek You deeper and share more of You to others, that I may proclaim Your praises and declare Your greatness to the ends of the earth.

Amen!