Looking Back...

Looking back at 2008...

January

1. Opened the year with Countdown Party at my house... wee!!!

2. Leaders Retreat for 2008, very mong cha cha the direction (i remember), but it was great after that...

3. 16 Jan - Birth of Sarah, my cute lil' god daughter

4. 26 Jan - Biggest birthday celebration, 2 1/2 table full of people when I tot there were only 10 of us, but it was great! And my birthday present kena peechia the lobang by the salesgirl... Lynette went back to the shop to get a dress I wanted to buy, when I went back 1 day later when i finally decided to get the dress, the salesgirl say... "Oh ur friend bought it liao!" hahahhahaha!

February/ March/ April

1. Explosion of the swollen eye, happened every 2-3weeks... very rampant

2. Chris & Lyn left for Melbourne... (at that time i was quite decided on going away for a year in 09 to Hills, wah! Tma quite sad... hahaha!)

3. Baptism of Sarah (my right eye exploded much!)

4. Started to journey with my hospi girls, saw a lot of fruits and breakthroughs happening

Was an emotionally challenging season... very "why so downcast O my soul...", seemed as if I lost a few very important friends in my life, had to lay a lot of boundaries and a time of healing in friendships took place

May/ June/ July

1. Led worship again after a year break in May, had to lead worship at YI, started to serve more actively in worship again after a 2 year break.

2. Spent a lot of time praying and seeking God all over again... renewed my relationship with God, loads of revelation...

Started "Salvation History" at SPI with the other 3 lizards (Thelms, Grace, Cassie).

August/ September

1. Passion KL (the only time i got out of the country in 08, how can this be? OMG!)

Went through a short season of spiritual dryness, again, unresolved issues always never fail to come and bite u in the butt.. really!

2. Leo and Cass went off for their Sabbatical during the heat of preparing for Amplify in the City

3. Amplify in the City!!

WOW! i felt like i coordinated another YI! omg! cheong like nobody's business! But it really took my mind off the spiritual valley season and lifted me up a lot more... though physically and mentally demanding...

4. Went to watch Diana Krall's Concert with the F1 racing cars as the backup vocals
(grace and i were furiously mad! they changed the venue to fort canning ok! if they kept it at Keppel Bay, it would have been all great... thanks concert organisers!)

Mid Sept to Mid October

I took the entire month to rest, just rest...

recuperate... allow God to heal... ohmmmmm

Mid October - November

1. woke up from the "rest" and realise that my BBFF is fainting!!!
faster went to rescue her, sat down with her at Ma Maison (i remember)... omg!

YI Publicity, Worship Team, Amplify Fridays... here i come!

and i love u very much BBFF!!!

2. Oh yes! Wedding of the year!!! Cassilda finally "jia chu qu le"!
gathering of old friends... love it!

and it's always lovely singing for good friend's wedding, means a lot more to me... had a lot of fun with the music... woopieee!!

Survived "Salvation History" with the other 3 lizards (Thelms, Grace, Cassie).

December

mong cha cha, walked into YI... never prepare well enough spiritually, but at the same time, i remembered to guard against attacks, but kena attacked at the throat! wahhh... drank a lot of "ugly juice"! kong's favourite medicine, he calls it "shit juice", but i cannot say the word "shit" cos Cassilda say cannot say...

Nerve wrecking Sunsets & Hurricanes, sucked the life out of the kk and me... omg!
sleepless nights, changing directions every other day until the kk had to fly around the room with me... thanks for being part of the ride! haha!

And it's the first time ever the night before YI, i still haven't prepare finish for the Worship Sets.. kk also (he oscared and took mc)

walked through YI as if i woke up from a dream... i still didnt know what was going on.

(short spurt of "why so downcast O my soul" period, again, unresolved issues never never never fail to come and bite at you at the butt... )


Right now: 14 mins before 2009...


Daddy God Most High,

You are my life, my all and everything I live for. Thank You for an amazing year, thank you for the valleys, the mountains, the blessings, the pruning and favours. Thank You for a lovely earthly daddy, hilarious/irritating brother who never fails to get on my nerves, thank you for the friendships that were forged, deepened and strengthened and thank you for such a lovely Amplify. Filled with gratitude in my heart, I just wanna say "I love You Daddy God!"

Thank you for a fruitful 2008!

I pray for a great 2009 to come, draw closer as I continue to seek, follow and run after You. I pray for wisdom, strength, perseverance, confidence and boldness... to seek You deeper and share more of You to others, that I may proclaim Your praises and declare Your greatness to the ends of the earth.

Amen!

Proverbs

With closest custody, guard your heart, for in it are the sources of life.

- Proverbs 4:23

string of parties

And the party begins...

24th Dec - Christmas @ Iggy's
25th Dec - Hosting my girly friends @ my place, 2pm-9pm
25th Dec - After Gal Friends leaves, Mahjong session Starts @9pm with Uncle Hoe, Antaeus, Flo, Chris, Lyn, Alvin, Charles Lim
26th Dec - Wake up, cook, Host Worship Team Thank You Party from 8pm onwards

SAY WOW! *do it with the 2 hands with 3 fingers and put it next to ur cheeks*

27th Dec - CSC Christmas Party (12 days of Christmas with Monkey & Worship Team)
27th Dec - rush to Charles & Ros place for Christmas Dinner
28th Dec - Birthday lunch for my brother, with Daddy

Rest 2 days

31st Dec - NYE Party!

Running forward...

When i look at my overwhelming circumstance and i go, "WAH! i cannot do this anymore!"

My Father in heaven will say, "Look to me! Don't be consumed by your circumstance."

And I will say, "My God, My God! I'm running this race all for You!"

Thanks for keeping me sane... I love You, Lord!

My God

My God, My God,


You make all things new...

You take sinners back...

You are my strength, my life, my all...

Don't turn Your face away from me, I'm running back to You...

Take me back.

Catch me if You can...

Don't challenge...

Don't try to run away...

He will catch you...

Cruising

Have you ever tried cruising in a song with God and never wanna wake up from it? And just wish you will do this forever?

Today's one of those days... funny as it may be, it happened at Spiritual Prep when I was leading worship... I just wished the song would go on and on and on... and never stop


Always

Did You rise the sun for me?
Or paint a million stars that I might know Your majesty?
Is Your voice upon the wind?
Is everything I know marked by my Maker's fingerprints?

Breathe on me
Let me see Your face
Ever I will seek You

Cos all You are
is all I want
Always
Draw me close in Your arms
O God, I wanna be with You

Can I feel You in the rain?
Abandon all I am to have You captured me again?
Let the earth resound with praise
Can you hear as all creation lives to glorify one name?

Insomnia

it's 4.30am and i'm still wide awake!
gosh i've been having frequent insomnia these days... it's freaky!
i wonder if it's the daily caffeine intake or what?

Jesus! HELP! i need to sleeeeep!

God made emotions

Hey!

I realise something! I only post on the blog whenever I feel emo...
which means for the rest of the time when I don't post, it means I'm like not emoting...

which means the lesser I post, you can be assured I'm ok and not emoting..
WOW! what a huge discovery! hahahaha!

no lah, I will post happy things too... OMG ! i'm talking to myself!

Sweet Jesus Christ, my Sanity

I had a revelation.

"Sweet Jesus Christ, my sanity...."

There's so much power in this phrase... OMG!
Charlie Hall! you very smart leh!


No one else but Jesus, He keeps me sane...

wooooo... I feel so much better by just clinging to my Lord... Thank You Jesus!

Weeeeeeee.....!!!

God-Shaped hole

I have a God-Shaped hole in my heart nothing earthly can satisfy...

Struggle.

"You have created us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you."

Restless heart.


St Augustine, you are so wise...

Amplify in the City

My God is Crazy, so is my Dad

My God is already crazy enough, so is my earthly Daddy...

He called me in the afternoon and told me he's at Barang Barang sale, and he bought a chest of drawers for me without my permission. He said it's $400, very cheap! My dad is full of surprises, he's unpredictable, really. As unpredictable as the weather...

Ok then you pay for me lor, i didnt ask you to buy it! haha!

YAY! Praise the Lord!!! I've got a new bed coming on Tuesday and I have a new chest of drawers to hide the 10million things that's lying all around...

I love my crazy God and my crazy Dad... mind u, it runs in the family! I'm crazy too... haha! I'm beginning to love it all! OMG i dunno what i'm talking about!

Amplify in the City

"Whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life." John 4:14

In the hustle and bustle of our lives, have we lost who we are? Have our lives lost the meaning and verve that they used to have?

Do you feel the need to get away from it all, to recharge and refocus but can't afford the time for a retreat?

Mark your calendars this September as Amplify Ministry brings our prayer meet to the city for one night! Come and join us as we embark on an initiative designed to awaken you to the reality of a living God and what He has in store for you.

All you need to do is come. Spread the word.

Date: 12 September 2008 (Friday)
Time: 7.45pm
Venue: NTUC Business Centre
Auditorium Level 7
1 Marina Boulevard

For direction: Look out for our volunteers at Raffles Place MRT from 7.15pm onwards!
Contact: Lydia (9060-6296) Florence (9753-4856)

James 1:2-4

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything.

I almost forgotten that I am running this race.

He never fails to keep pulling me back on track, I know that He will always pursue me no matter what and He still reigns over me.

Praise Him!

Down the Valley

Psalm 42

Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.


I feel it coming back... once again

Headaches!

I've been having headaches very frequently these days... like strange! I've never had this problem all my life, but it's like OMG! I'm having headaches every other day these 2 weeks... my eyes are dry and I'm looking at the computer screen and ARGH... i'm not feeling very good...

I can't wait for my new bed to arrive! I think it will really help solve all my stiff neck, headache, swollen eye, backache, body ache problems!!!

*crossing my fingers

Love

Love is what God had put in my heart... And it's really strange how much I love the girls in Hospi Team, u have no idea how much I love them and I've never tried caring and loving for a friend like that before! I really can't explain it with words!

It was heart warming knowing they love me as much too... Funny but true, Lynn and I were affirming each other last nite, just how much we love one another. Love can be so pure... it's a great gift from God!

And I really wanna thank God for teaching me how it is to truly love people, through the girls. This is what God calls us to do, to love one another, and I really see it happening, so real in my life.

Thank You Jesus!

Seasons Change

I was talking to Joel today randomly about buying Hillsong Conference Tickets for 09, and i'm like gosh.. i dunno what my plans are, i really don't. I've got plans all the way to 2011 but guess what? I refuse to plan anymore, whenever i think ok it's all great! it's all good! God foils my plans...

So i've decided that I will just follow... be an obedient daughter of God and just follow, i won't plan anymore, the more I plan, the more i get confused by my beloved Father in heaven.

I'll just take one step at a time now...

Mood: Emo

Desert Song

I wept and I wept on hearing this song...
Brooke Fraser just does magic with her lyrics


This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When truimp is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll Stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow